Post by nick on Aug 20, 2012 2:53:25 GMT -5
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So I've done a bit of thinking. Every sort of leader in the world has to expect real life details to get out to the people they're leading; it's only right in a leader, even for a silly co-admin on a silly roleplaying forum. But it's something that must be said.
This month of August has been, teen overdramaticism notwithstanding, one of, if not the worst, month of my life. That's even in spite of gaining a bunch of friends and a great community here at Wonk, as well as some old friends returning for a new adventure. I realized that both of my parents, not just my mother, are alcoholics. I realized that my mother wasn't going to get better, and I doubt my father will either. I realized that the most expensive meal I'm going to eat in quite some time (probably four to six years), at least with my family, is McDonald's because we don't exactly have money, and I'd prefer not to think of how I'm going to pay for college. My dog died the day after my parents spent seven hundred dollars buying pills to try to save him. A great site I was on died, and I can't help but blame myself, even though people tell me it wasn't my fault. I lost someone who I considered a friend in quite a verbally acidic manner. I've spent about a half hour curled up in my bed sobbing and shaking. I'm honestly scared of what I'm going to do.
But that's right now. One good thing about me is that I bounce back, and I bounce back quickly. I need to take a few days off of Wonk. No profiles, no updating face claims and the census, no posting (unfortunately), no responsibility to fret over. I know Emily and Blu can handle things (great timing on that whole moderator thing). I'll probably be on MSN, and Skype, and the Cbox. Just don't expect me to do much other than talking, and not even a whole lot of that. I don't want any of you to worry, because I know deep down I'm not going to do a thing besides eventually fall asleep for an hour or two and wake up more exhausted then when my head hit the pillow. I just had to say all of this because I've been holding it back for far too long now and you guys have a right to know, because as cheesy as it may sound we've all gathered here and I consider you guys a part of my family. Maybe that's coming from someone who doesn't have much of a family to start with. Maybe that's coming from someone who is enamored with the concept of family, especially when it's really just a group of people I consider friends. But it stands regardless.
I used to have a character who loved the feeling of catharsis. I suppose with this post, as silly as it may sound, I really know now how that feels.
I'll see you all tomorrow and much love to each of you <3
This month of August has been, teen overdramaticism notwithstanding, one of, if not the worst, month of my life. That's even in spite of gaining a bunch of friends and a great community here at Wonk, as well as some old friends returning for a new adventure. I realized that both of my parents, not just my mother, are alcoholics. I realized that my mother wasn't going to get better, and I doubt my father will either. I realized that the most expensive meal I'm going to eat in quite some time (probably four to six years), at least with my family, is McDonald's because we don't exactly have money, and I'd prefer not to think of how I'm going to pay for college. My dog died the day after my parents spent seven hundred dollars buying pills to try to save him. A great site I was on died, and I can't help but blame myself, even though people tell me it wasn't my fault. I lost someone who I considered a friend in quite a verbally acidic manner. I've spent about a half hour curled up in my bed sobbing and shaking. I'm honestly scared of what I'm going to do.
But that's right now. One good thing about me is that I bounce back, and I bounce back quickly. I need to take a few days off of Wonk. No profiles, no updating face claims and the census, no posting (unfortunately), no responsibility to fret over. I know Emily and Blu can handle things (great timing on that whole moderator thing). I'll probably be on MSN, and Skype, and the Cbox. Just don't expect me to do much other than talking, and not even a whole lot of that. I don't want any of you to worry, because I know deep down I'm not going to do a thing besides eventually fall asleep for an hour or two and wake up more exhausted then when my head hit the pillow. I just had to say all of this because I've been holding it back for far too long now and you guys have a right to know, because as cheesy as it may sound we've all gathered here and I consider you guys a part of my family. Maybe that's coming from someone who doesn't have much of a family to start with. Maybe that's coming from someone who is enamored with the concept of family, especially when it's really just a group of people I consider friends. But it stands regardless.
I used to have a character who loved the feeling of catharsis. I suppose with this post, as silly as it may sound, I really know now how that feels.
I'll see you all tomorrow and much love to each of you <3
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